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from the distance
03:23
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i want to believe it,
but i know that it’s not true.
so i’ll let it deceive me,
as long as my heart doesn’t
put up a fight.
& i try to erase it
from my mind,
but it stays.
so i’ll stand in the river,
& i’ll hope i step out
a new man.
& i’ll walk in the moonlight,
reflecting all the light
back up there.
& you’ll watch,
from the distance,
my body turn to dust.
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white trees
02:45
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i have seen,
in the light of day,
the sun turn to black.
& i have been
in some distant state,
& i’ve yet to come back.
light spills right through
the balcony window.
night kills the blue day
that was once in there.
i have felt
my heart grow wide,
only to retract.
& i have left
my dreams to the tide.
now they’re salted and cracked.
sight leaves the room
i once found myself looking.
white trees, in bloom,
wait patient for painting.
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3. |
wither away
03:25
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i hang in the closet
with old, torn-up laundry,
of an empty apartment,
pitch-black, sparse, & dusty.
my lungs would cry out
for a lover to help,
if they didn’t know
no one would come –
oh well.
i lay in the grass;
there’s a boulder above me –
airborne, impatient,
just waiting to crush me.
my only escape
is to lie in one place,
& wait for my hungry soul
to wither away.
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on a sailboat
01:43
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i’m feeling easy.
i feel at home.
i’m on a sailboat,
sailing all alone
can i just stay here,
floating on the waves?
here, in the moment—
a calm, & tranquil brain.
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5. |
could be better
03:47
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no, i don’t want anything real today.
show me photographs of skies,
& trees, & rivers, & mountain tops.
just don’t drag me outside.
‘cause the images look better
than they would’ve with my eyes.
maybe crank the sharpness
& the saturation dials.
the less i recognize the objects
in the frame, the better.
yeah, that’s better.
no, i don’t want anything cruel today.
go on, break out the make-up, & the smiles.
find all your imperfections & bury them.
just don’t bat me down with those grey eyes.
‘cause your judgments are better
in a bottle, out at sea.
where anyone can reach down
& read them, just not me.
the less i'm subjected
to negativity, the better.
this could be better.
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6. |
to give in
04:37
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a fatal flaw; a simple law—
it tells you when to start or stop,
but isn’t written down, so not
as simple as it seems.
your subtle tells; your cries for help—
they never leave your tiny shell.
they hide behind the face you sell
to every living soul.
there’s a lever attached to your back,
that you’ll never reach.
the question lingering
is whether you should let
someone flick the switch.
it’s just a phase, or so they say—
yeah, one day you’ll find your way
out of this dark & stormy maze
you’ve wandered all your life.
but it’s a lie; you just can’t buy it—
vague, unfounded, shit advice.
no, some things don’t get better,
like the pressure to give in.
there’s a letter; it’s folded in your hands,
but you can’t recall
whether you’re sending it,
or if it was meant for you—
then again, who’d write to you?
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7. |
wind (interlude)
02:38
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silent songs
03:40
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make my way around town.
unknown faces surround.
try to fly away,
but i’m stuck to the ground,
so i keep flapping my wings.
someday i’ll leave everything.
give my thanks to the world
for giving me eyes that are blurred.
see, how could i judge
& use such hurtful words
toward something that i can’t see.
for all i know, it could be me.
but i can’t breathe
when these heavy eyes
keep drowning me.
they push & shove
‘til i give up.
& no, it doesn’t take long.
now i’m singing out silent songs.
find my teeth on the floor.
hear a knock on the door.
i wake up & look
to see my favourite books
scattered, with all pages torn.
in my doorway, a shadow with horns.
& i can’t sleep
when these demons
just won’t leave me be.
well, thinking a lot
makes room for sick thoughts.
once they get there, they don’t leave—
& fighting won’t bring on the peace.
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tell me now, why should i go on?
24, still haven’t found a home.
maybe if i didn’t have this
broken face,
i would’ve never had
this feeling at all.
face-to-face with everything i love—
look away when it all seems too much.
maybe if i didn’t have this
tangled heart,
i’d be able to look
you in the eye.
oh, it comes and goes,
& i try to stretch my hand out
when it’s close.
though i know it to be fleeting,
i still play the fool—
it just might be the only way
to carry on.
& when i’ve lost my mind,
there won’t be any meaning
left to find.
maybe that’s the state
i’ve been dreaming of.
i guess all i can really do
is count the days.
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10. |
if i don't drown
04:41
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another day in the wasteland,
where the trees stay asleep, underground.
i wake up & check my pulse again,
& wait for my heart to pound.
if it doesn’t, will i be afraid?
looming out in the distance,
a torrential thundercloud.
find me there, on a sailboat;
i’ll be lucky if i don’t drown.
& if i don’t, who will i have to blame?
lying down on the riverbed—
i just might never be found.
but on the chance that they excavate,
will my bones make a sound?
& if they do, what will they have to say?
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my name is mason & i like to write songs about things.
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