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racing from the silence - EP

by the smallest one

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1.
i saw a ghost tonight. it looked me in the eye— i wanted to look back, but lost my sight. it took my hand, & i slowly realized it was you, & i lost my spine. if i never saw your face, i would never know this pain. & this bear won’t stop watching me, through my window, while i try to sleep. i got a call today— she said she was okay; i listened, without a word to say. she gave her heart away; i kept mine in its place. do i not care? or am i just afraid? is this indifference gonna replace the kid i used to be? falling forward, with no end in sight— is it too late to still pretend? i hope it’s not too late to still pretend.
2.
there’s something growing in the kitchen. & i caught it from the start, but i didn’t do a thing. i’ve stopped checking some time ago— think, ‘if i don’t look, maybe it’ll go away.’ for what’s time, but a killer, anyway? & i’m feeling a pain in my side, but i’ll leave it ‘til tomorrow— i don’t want to cause a fuss. well, the hospital’s close; if i collapse i’ll be fine. then again, do i even want to be saved? i guess we’ll just have to wait until that day. now my favourite record’s coming to an end. & i’ll hold onto these moments, like my best friend. yeah, i’m racing from the silence, once again.
3.
i was sixteen, sitting in my mother’s car, & in that silence i was alone with my thoughts. like some confession no one could hear, my head accepted what my heart had always feared. it’s all i want, but it never comes— i’m fucked up from the stories i’ve been told. my body shivers at the thought of your blue eyes looking in mine, the way the sea looks at the sky. i know it’s just the comfort in the fantasy that keeps me from wandering out this door and to the sea. it’s all i want, but it never comes— i’m fucked up from the stories i’ve been told. well, there are moments that get me so hopeful. but quickly, i get sucked back into this black hole. & so it’s cold— oh, it’s so cold.
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won't happen 03:31
every day, i wait for memories to come back, flooding in. dissipate the days to come, the ones that just won’t happen, ‘cause i know my head’s a perfect circle, & my thoughts are just a pattern that won’t break. can i tie them to a balloon, & watch them fly away? when will i become a line? would you still be my friend if i cut myself open, & spilled my guts, & asked you to sew me back up again? i know it’s a lot to ask, so i won’t blame you if you run, & don’t come back. i’m sure it would come to this, so i’ll keep you from it; i’ll keep my insides where they belong.
5.
i was sitting in the yard. looked up from my book & i saw a spaceship, floating in the dark. it did its dance for all the buildings, in its own unapologetic way. but after only moments, it shot right back up into space. i turned my head away, & back, hoping it would rematerialize. & there it was, in the yard. but then the ship burst into fireworks, & i knew that you were right, about the time when we were driving home, & you pointed out the lights dancing in the evening sky. they said you were crazy; i thought the same thing— looks like i’m the one who’s crazy. i’ll never doubt you again.

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released December 26, 2018

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the smallest one Calgary, Alberta

my name is mason & i like to write songs about things.

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